I have been having a difficult time getting through this Winter. I think I may be experiencing “cabin fever” for the first time in my life. Often, like most people who reside in a region with a dreary Winter, I feel the “I’m sooooo ready for Spring/Summer” but this is an entirely different feeling. I have experienced 2 semi-major meltdowns. My mood is awful. It’s been so hard on me that I even feel too upset to workout which is typically what makes me feel optimistic about life.
Yesterday, I forced myself to the gym after an embarrassing sob fest in my car. I contemplated just hopping on the elliptical and getting through 45 minutes with a grumpy face and hating life and everything in it but I thought better of that and remembered how much I really love running. I really cannot wait for above freezing (preferably +50*F) temperatures so I can start running outdoors again. I really miss zoning out on a trail. Back to the gym session, I probably looked a little crazy but I had to focus on the ceiling so I wouldn’t be distracted by people/tv and then settled into a day dream about beaches for 30 minutes.
I wish a tropical beach was just 40 minutes away like it used to be. A weekend trip to a warm island to escape the monotony of daily life.
…to note that I think I might be back in high school gym class…
A look around will show 16-18 year olds and a whole lot of flirting.
If they are high schoolers, that’s pretty cool to see them taking an interest in their health at this age. Because I sure wasn’t at that age.
It’s been a few months since I last posted about how my plan to have more hobbies has gone.
A couple of things have changed in my life and I guess I wasn’t too aware of them until I was scrolling through my old posts last night.
1.Blogging more regularly. I’ve been trying to post more I guess but I also started a couple new blogs like this one.
2.Crocheting. It crosses my mind about once/day but I haven’t done a single thing.
3.Knitting. I forgot I wanted to do this.
4.Photography. I got a really nice camera for Christmas but it’s mostly been used for food photography and a handful of times Rob and I have gone out and about intentionally to photograph stuff.
5.Volunteer. I finally went to the volunteer orientation at the Urban Ecology Center earlier this month and also attended a monitoring meeting so I will be working in a research group for the next 4-5 months.
6.Running buddy/group. I haven’t really gone running running since Thanksgiving. But I signed up for a half marathon TODAY so that’ll motivate me to get back into running and hopefully the weather will eventually warm up so outdoor running will become an option once again.
7.Travel. Currently working on road trip plans with Rob for our 5th anniversary this summer. We have a few options in mind for where to go, what to see, etc.
8.Baking. I started makebakecookcreate so this is going well however the healthy swaps/options aren’t going well…
9.Recipe book. Totally forgot I wanted to do this.
10.Fitness class. I have been frequenting Spin class since December. I love it.
11.Reading. This is going well. I have almost completed the Dexter series and have about 3 books queued on my Kindle to keep me busy for awhile.
I think I’ve got a pretty good start on this list. Realizing this has made me feel less like a useless being than I have been feeling lately.
I was just thinking that maybe I’d hate Winter less if I actually did some Winter activities like skiing…I’ve never done anything in Winter. I just suffer through the 9 months of it to enjoy 3 months of decent weather.
Anyways, then I realized I just really hate the cold and no amount of Winter activity could make up for the temperature.
I had a mini meltdown about all this last night. I’m sick of watching tv, of reading, of being inside, of the lack of daylight…I’ve reached my [ultimate] breaking point. It’s so ugly outside.
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and I’m sorry for that. I do hope this recipe will make up for my absence.
I prefer scones for breakfast or a mid-morning snack with coffee but really they’re good anytime of day. I won’t judge if you eat one for a midnight snack.
yummmm these are so delicious.